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Geraldine
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I was either going to be a doctor or an actuary. I can’t believe I chose this path. What a long, arduous, tear-drenched road it’s been.
After failing SA1 last session (which was hopefully going to be my last ever), I was dejected to find out I’d failed. I’d put in WAY more hours than what’s recommended. I’d painstakingly summarised the notes, built my lists, learnt them thoroughly, did around 20 past papers - I wanted to bury this nightmare once and for all. I thought I’d utilised all the strategies I’d learnt previously from passing CA1 and the two STs. Sadly, my name was not on the list.
So I’m finally finding the motivation to open up the books again, and lo and behold! The syllabus change is more significant than I thought it would be (at least at first glance). I don’t know about anyone else but, for me, this is heartbreaking stuff. I can barely study the stuff I’d put in hundreds of hours for already - now I have to learn a fair amount of new stuff, figure out where the differences are in the core reading, and learn about regulatory regimes in countries I’ll never work in. Also, there seems to be stuff from the old ST1 exam in this subject.
Why???
Why, IFOA? You’ve robbed me of so much time. I’ve missed out on being with family for such a long time.
I’m so exhausted. Mentally exhausted. I think nothing has driven me as close to depression as probably these exams have. I’m so tired and one more exam feels like 5 more right now. No idea why I’m writing this - venting maybe. I think the saddest thing is, I don’t even like my job and I don’t think I could stomach the idea of being an actuary till I retire. The universe is so cruel sometimes.
After failing SA1 last session (which was hopefully going to be my last ever), I was dejected to find out I’d failed. I’d put in WAY more hours than what’s recommended. I’d painstakingly summarised the notes, built my lists, learnt them thoroughly, did around 20 past papers - I wanted to bury this nightmare once and for all. I thought I’d utilised all the strategies I’d learnt previously from passing CA1 and the two STs. Sadly, my name was not on the list.
So I’m finally finding the motivation to open up the books again, and lo and behold! The syllabus change is more significant than I thought it would be (at least at first glance). I don’t know about anyone else but, for me, this is heartbreaking stuff. I can barely study the stuff I’d put in hundreds of hours for already - now I have to learn a fair amount of new stuff, figure out where the differences are in the core reading, and learn about regulatory regimes in countries I’ll never work in. Also, there seems to be stuff from the old ST1 exam in this subject.
Why???
Why, IFOA? You’ve robbed me of so much time. I’ve missed out on being with family for such a long time.
I’m so exhausted. Mentally exhausted. I think nothing has driven me as close to depression as probably these exams have. I’m so tired and one more exam feels like 5 more right now. No idea why I’m writing this - venting maybe. I think the saddest thing is, I don’t even like my job and I don’t think I could stomach the idea of being an actuary till I retire. The universe is so cruel sometimes.